Now what?

Since August 2010, I have been attempting to do what I thought I wanted to do: become a self-employed entrepreneur-- a consultant. .
it has not worked and it's time to wave the white flag.
These attempts have brought me to reality. .but also brought me 'down'. . .and I'm not sure the lessons learned are worth what I had to pay . .
my self worth has taken a beating;
my bank accounts and financial worth have been battered beyond repair. .
I feel that I've been taken for a ride, and worst of all. .I was warned about affiliating with the company I chose, but I thought I was good enough to succeed on my own.
Now I'm feeling the pain of failure, and nursing my wounds.. .looking for the next more positive open door, that I won't have to bang down or beg or pay someone to hire me.
LM