The job: Mom

I guess the job that I chose, and like the best, is still that of being a mother.  My 3 kids and their children give me the greatest pride of all.  And no supervisor to fire you. The pay comes in hugs and smiles and little hands that will hold yours when you cross the street or rock them as babies. 
Mother's Day is just around the corner and they always remember it;  holidays have always been a great tradition for them-- something their dad fostered in them, even more than I.. . And he did his part to help me become a good mom.  They honor him as their dad, too, which also makes me proud.

so. .even though I must admit that I used to want  recognition for the outside-the-home work I did, my best accomplishments are still Monica, Darrin and Andrea.

Today I received a Mother's Day card from someone who cares about me very much.  It is a great feeling when people other than my family recognize that I've been a good mom, and continue to enjoy it.. What more could a mother ask for?

Now what?

Since August 2010, I have been attempting to do what I thought I wanted to do: become a self-employed entrepreneur-- a consultant. .
it has not worked and it's time to wave the white flag.
These attempts have brought me to reality. .but also brought me 'down'. . .and I'm not sure the lessons learned are worth what I had to pay . .
my self worth has taken a beating;
my bank accounts and financial worth have been battered beyond repair. .
I feel that I've been taken for a ride, and worst of all. .I was warned about affiliating with the company I chose, but I thought I was good enough to succeed on my own.
Now I'm feeling the pain of failure, and nursing my wounds.. .looking for the next more positive open door, that I won't have to bang down or beg or pay someone to hire me.
LM